Sunday, June 13, 2021

Untitled

Look inside
you took our whole world apart
don't wait up
don't wait up

Look at us
all of it is in the past
don't look back
don't look back

Different shade
different side of story to tell
don't make it up
don't make up

And all of us
in the same ball park
tossed away
never made to stay

A forbidden tale
picture seemed so clear to me
it fades in time
it fades after a while

but not now


Saturday, March 27, 2021

Omzigt

In groep 7 werd ik ernstig ziek. Een ontsteking tussen mijn bekken en heiligbeen. Als het niet acuut in het ziekenhuis behandeld was, dan was ik vanaf mijn tiende invalide geweest. Het kwam allemaal gelukkig goed. Na een maand mocht ik weer het ziekenhuis uit. Wel moest ik revalideren en opnieuw leren lopen. In het ziekenhuis was ik overspoelt met tekeningen en berichten van mijn klas. Terug op school wilde alle meisjes mijn rolstoel duwen in de pauzes. De stille jongen kreeg opeens alle aandacht. Dat voelde best goed.

Ik herstelde en dacht dat het leven gewoon weer zou hervatten. Maar dat was niet zo. Er kwam halverwege het jaar een nieuwe jongen in de klas. Hij heette Tim. Hij was een jaar jonger dan de rest van de kinderen. Want hij was hoogbegaafd. Vooral rekenen kon hij al op hoger niveau. Zijn motoriek was echter onderontwikkeld. Gooide je een bal zijn kant op. Hij zou hem nooit vangen. Het zag er echt niet uit. Het was een rare jongen, hij sprak ook vreemd en achteraf was hij ook niet eens heel sympathiek. Maar ik sprak hem af en toe in de pauze. En wilde bij hem thuis ook best soms A2 racer komen spelen.

Saturday, March 13, 2021

Morning Glory

So what's the story
morning glory
right by your side
biding our time

Still a memory
feel like never ending
we rise into borrowed time
still out of our minds
what a mess we left behind
what new memories are made of

And where are we going
not sure so we keep going
right before our eyes
right back on our own time

So what's the story
morning glory
here we are always
decided by our fate

I still don't mind you
remember what's true
in our own ways
it was a perfect landscape
I don't feel like
give a piece of my time
I know we are out of our minds

I would be right by your side
if it wasn't for the pain you left behind

Tried to see you
tried to feel you
tried to keep it together

Don't wanne wake her up
don't wanna shake her up
just wanna go home home home

And know that I want to
know that I need to
but I can't find no way
out of here

Thursday, January 14, 2021

Locked Room

I believe our world has changed
and our lives come crashing down

there is a weight pulling down on us
and the children cry out loud
we can't keep playing these wicked games
the lies will break us apart

I can always see you
like a dream in the back of my mind
I can't always be with you
if you don't let me back inside
I can't be with you if we don't leave the past behind

I can't see whats in your mind
but I can feel that you're not here
I can't guess what's on your mind
but I know it's something I can't bare

I still try to believe in you
even if your lies come crashing down

Sunday, October 4, 2020

Waarom bleef je niet voor mij

Het thema de dood komt 5 september 2009 samen in het appartement van Tonio in de Nepveustraat. Ik ben die avond met Tonio en Milou naar cafe Belgique geweest. Vaaghuysen zat waarschijnlijk vol. Het regende en we gaan daarna met een taxi naar Tonio's huis en kijken daar nog de film Garden State met Zach Braff en Natalie Portman. Tonio is moe (en stoned) en haakt eerder af. Hij legt voor ons nog een matras in de rommelige huiskamer, mochten we blijven crashen. Met rommelig bedoel ik een vloer vol met computeronderdelen die we verder aan de kant schuiven. Milou krijgt opeens last van de hik.

Dan gaat de telefoon van Milou. Waar ze is? Ik zet de film op pauze. Haar oom en tante komen er per direct aan. "Mijn moeder. O mijn god." hoor ik haar zeggen nadat ze heeft opgehangen. Hoewel haar oom er nog niks over wilde zeggen voelt ze het al meteen aan. Ze begint te rillen. Ik sla een deken en een arm om haar heen.

Saturday, September 26, 2020

Brainwash Love

Save up all you can for a brighter day
the polish is fading anyway
we both don't really feel like sleeping
but we neither have that much to say

and I don't know how much will be the cost
place your bets on classic brainwash love

Is this the start is this the end
time to say goodbye my friend

Do you feel pleased with your favorite color
do you even remember why you picked that one
when you stare at it for many hours
there is oil dripping of your tongue

This city could not remove these thoughts today
I think I'll take another way or maybe not
this city could not remove these thoughts today
I think I'll take another way

Is this the start is this the end
time to say goodbye my friend

Heavenly Creatures

A Light shines
in our broken eyes
why hide
all you felt inside

These heavenly creatures
won't go away
dying in slow pain
wish it all away

Feeling comfortable now
what is there to gain
wish away all the pain

It might not seem
all that clear to me
those days of dreams
are all I'll ever see

These heavenly creatures
won't go away
dying in slow pain
wish it all away

Feeling comfortable now
what is there to gain
wish away all the pain

Saturday, July 11, 2020

Darkness

I hate out loud
can't seem to shut my mouth
I am so sweet
ain't that nice of me
I just can't sleep
I can't believe

Another night
another day
just try and stay away

I see a darkness coming
its coming for your soul
let you be swept away
seek and destroy
I see a darkness coming
it's coming for your soul
let you get swept away
that is her only goal
one day you'll know

No way
no way out of here
no way no way
I just can't sleep

Time to face the truth
it's not just me and you
it's something else
that takes a hold of you
time to let go
one day you'll know

I see a darkness coming
its coming for your soul
let you be swept away
seek and destroy
I see a darkness coming
it's coming for your soul
let you get swept away
that is her only goal
one day you'll know

Monday, May 11, 2020

No Tomorrow

In the wake of silence
resort to violence
no one ever said they are sorry

for the fact there is no tomorrow

Watch the sunrise
one day at a time
no one ever said they are sorry
for the fact there is no tomorrow

home alone
all alone


Is the fall high enough
is the call out bright enough
no one ever said they are sorry
for the fact there is no tomorrow

I wish the daytime
could be a goldmine
no one ever said they are sorry
for the fact there is no tomorrow

I missed the daytime
did not see any sun shine
no one ever said they are sorry
for the fact there is no tomorrow

home alone
all alone

I can't wake up
the final break up
no one ever said they are sorry
for the fact there is no tomorrow

home alone
all alone

Tuesday, March 24, 2020

No Way Out

Know that I want to
know that I need to
I can't safe you
I can't erase you
there is no way

Know that I want to
really not be here
but I can't find it
I can't find no way
no way
no way out of here

Just keep telling that
this time will be different
but you can't save me
it's better to erase me

Each time a little closer
each time a bit further away
there is no way
no way
no way out of here

Just come a little closer
this time you really can't stay
there is no way
no way

Wednesday, December 18, 2019

Rain or Shine

No words at this time are in place
wish it could be our saving grace
but we both know that won't be the case

There used to be a bright light now it's gone
I've been used to better days but those are done
is it gonna rain or will we shine
doesn't really matter just don't lie

And I hate to see you cry
Because I don't have to ask you why


If the day would just be shining bright
I don't know what you are hoping there to find
now it is time to leave everything behind

There used to be a bright light now it's gone
I've been used to better days but those are done
is it gonna rain or will we shine
doesn't really matter just don't lie

And I hate to see you cry
Because I don't have to ask you why

Just come home
just come home

Home just come home
I know you won't
home just come home
I know you won't